First Night

Wondering if this is the life meant for me right now I’m in a battle between me,him,and the lord. The worst feeling ever is to love and take care of a person whom within a year in a half time frame have lost all love and respect for you and in the mist of his alcohol and drug use I’m dealing with extreme disrespectful behavior and hurting things are said and done however the next morning you claim too have no knowledge meanwhile I’m dealing with the pain daily and with time instead of things getting better there getting worst…