Words can not express the way my love life and how things hwere not what we talked about noe planned yet I find myself degrading my life for a man whom doesn’t respect me not love me fully and were too the point where he tells me he don’t care daily and tells me I’m acting like a wife but he has me doing she that wifes do daily so what other suite would I follow and living together increased the distance in which our love is fading daily and it doesn’t matter how many times I try to work things out and I feel even more stupid because its kinda hard to work on a relationship with a man whom is fighting hisself because he doesn’t know what he wants in life yet I try to help him the best way I can give him my last even when he gives me his ass I still go over and beyond and I need to stop haven’t got that down packed I find myselfing praying and crying more weeking and this fwwling I wou;dn’t even wish on my emenies I wish I had someone I could talk to because keeping this balled up is fuciking with me in which I can’t take out my fustrations out on no one but anywho prayers ofr better days

Wondering if this is the life meant for me right now I’m in a battle between me,him,and the lord. The worst feeling ever is to love and take care of a person whom within a year in a half time frame have lost all love and respect for you and in the mist of his alcohol and drug use I’m dealing with extreme disrespectful behavior and hurting things are said and done however the next morning you claim too have no knowledge meanwhile I’m dealing with the pain daily and with time instead of things getting better there getting worst…

Thanks for joining me!

In the words of (Izaak Walton) Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter, however in my case it makes things alot easier to express myself in all fields in the world I live in things happen daily and I have no one too talk to so I thought why not start a blog maybe there are other people in the world who is just like me, besides with this quartine what else is there really too do….well sit back relax and enjoy the ride from my view.